天空！

每个人的头顶上都有一片又辽阔又自由自在的天空，
好像八宝袋一样，装满无数的装备，准备为大地苍生造福，
有白天，黑夜，晴天，蓝天，阴天，雨天，
人总不能旺一辈子，有起必有跌，有得必有失；

天空的表面还挂着无数的星星，
闪着闪着亮晶晶把微薄的光芒献给人们，大地，
给所有生物带来希望，依靠，继续往前走的动力，
如果人总是需要依赖别人，我的依赖呢？

那天空偶尔还拖着一个又胖又圆的月亮，
每逢佳节都会把光芒陪伴，娱乐人们，
将本能照亮大地，带来微薄但有生命力的光芒，
花好月圆，人圆团聚，能帮人圆梦吗？

白云，乌云都会集聚在天空的范围内，
白云带来晴天霹雳，乌云带来乌云密布，
自然的逻辑，有黑就有白，有贵人就有瘟神，
瘟神时常徘徊在身旁，贵人则擦肩而过；

天空是这样，那生长在天空下的我们呢？
每天活在你尔我咋，偷窃拐骗的世界，
厌倦了这样的生活，每天努力活着，
拼命为自己争取，想要荣华富贵，
到头来还是一无所有，一场欢喜一场空！
何必呢？

Back to Home !!

This is the first time I'm not the last person who leave the 1493 big family. Really enjoy the moment spent together. Today, after the exam, straight rush back to home and clean up the messy room during the exam period, then prepare to go home. Before going home, I had my this semester last lunch with Yihui and Kae Ying as well as my sister also.

Really feel bored when thinking to go home, cause at home I won't have the time to waste on talking craps with friends, playing around with those monkeys(ys,soohin), screamers(kw,yh) and of cause the bullier(sh,ky). And also won't get the chance to play L4D2(although is wasting money,but its interesting).

However, I got a lot of activities that are uncertain and going to be done in the future. On this coming Thursday, 24th Dec, i will meet up my friends in Gurney to sing K, and then go to the other part of Penang to meet my TA3 to countdown the Christmas. And they will be staying here for 3days until 26th Dec. Wow, so many activities!

During my last week of holiday, I will be going to KL for 4days, start from 10th Jan 2010, and then continue to Muar on 13th Jan night. The next day, 14th Jan, plan to go to Melaka to meet Fandy Kan in Tampin ( So sad that she keep on forget the day I want got to visit her T_T). Then back to Muar on 15thDec and enjoy our day in Muar for the food and moment there. Haha, back to Kampar on Saturday, either in the morning or night, depends on the other buddy, TYS. Haha, our main driver for half of the trip. Wakaka !!

Really hope to look forward that day to come. But that week also the week when the result is going to release, hope that our mood won't be interupted by the result, as this time, I think I won't get IT again.

Pre-celebrating !!

People had already finished their last paper yesterday noon, and I, will also finish my last paper next Monday.

Today( means later noon) and tomorrow, I will be going to celebrate end of the exam session in advance with my housemates(who already can celebrate).

Now, I very contravention, as if I'm going to play now, like I'm not taking my last paper seriously, and I'm going to waste two days time just for playing. If I'm not joining them, like I'm deviance.

But, I believe in myself and I think think that I can handle my last paper well, just hope to get what I want (I'm not just hoping, I put a lot of effort in it!!) But normally the subject I put a lot of efford won't have good return. Just like my FIM, just get an A-, AFA, FAF II, and QT also all also getting a "-". How can that be?? I myself also don't know.

Hope that this time the both subject that I put efford won't dissappointed me. What I want is not a pass or a B, I want get higher.

我害怕！

突然之间，我感觉越来越怕了！怕是因为做错事吗？怕是因为得罪了人吗？怕是因为内疚？应该不是吧，我没那种感觉，只是内心存在着一种不安的心情，一种无法向别人述说。原本怕已经使我，哎，再加上不能够找任何人诉说，怎么办才好呢？

怎么付出的不等于结果呢？为什么？为何？即使不同重量，至少也给我接近的结果，怎样也别给我差太多的分数嘛！是天在玩我吗？人算不如天算，怎么都斗不过天的！

昨天晚上，真得令我想起很多事，想了都让我起鸡皮疙瘩，真的太恐怖了，太离谱，太不可思议了！我还以为我的了忧郁症！

Countdown !!

9 more days, I will be free from any burden.

8 more days, I will be going to sit for my last paper –marketing.

7 more days, I will be sitting in the room studying the whole day for next day exam.

6 more days, I will be seeing a lot of people going back to their hometown, celebrating their holiday and Christmas.

5 more days, I will be having nice and golden dinner with my housemates, memorable memories.

4 more days, I will be going to Ipoh choosing my gift.

3 more days, I will be listening a lot of people hooraying for finishing their exam, especially my “toilet-mates”.

2 more days, I will be still continuing my revision.

1 more day, I will be starting my revision for last paper.

Now the last day, I’m now watching series and playing games like having holiday.

“Ta-Ma-De”

I having my first paper test and it was ITM, the most memorable events that I will remember the most in my life.

Actually I had already prepared a lot during the study week, and I have confident that I answer the question properly. I had already study textbook, lecture notes and tutorial as well.

However, when I went in for the exam and open the question paper, “ta-ma-de”, just the section A, and I saw a lot of question marks, why I DIDN’T see any of the term before? Even I do, I also saw it from the textbook. In common, if the lecturer did not include some term in the slide but you can find it in the textbook, it means that the lecturer do not want you to study right? Or they just mean to ignore those particular parts.

And those lecturers really can set question from everywhere. Just like our midterm exam, it’s totally not related to us.

One word can describe these situations, “SUCKS”!!

How to find?

Its very long time that I didn't achieve high marks for my every coursework marks. I have became "stupid", I think.

When in foundation, even my assignment marks didn't get the highest marks in class, but I still managed to achieve high marks in my coursework. But now, my courseworks depends on my assignment, without the assignment marks, I'm nothing.

Why I have become such "stupid"? Or I should say that I had lost my confident? Last time, I like exam a lot, and study like drinking water. But now, everytime I face the lecture notes, I feel very scared and no mood to study. Why ?? I'm finding that confident, but still it took me a very long time, and I still couldn't manage to find it.

Miss HER...

Its already a very long time that she had been leaving me. But still, I can't stop myself from thinking everything about HER. I really miss her, although I knew that she won't come back again.

Form 2, is the year that I was first met her, her face, size, hair color, eyes, and ears, I still remember everything vividly. She was so cute that couldn't stop myself from looking at her. Since the day I met her, I played with her almost everyday.

When I was unhappy, she will accompany me;
When I was boring, she will play with me;
When I was happy, she was there to enjoy the joy with me;
When I was singing, she will listen from the beginning till the end.

It was a happy moment to have her. But, for now, she won't be there for me anymore. She had became memory for me. I STILL miss HER a lot !!

Happy Birthday To En Wee !!

One small cake,

in a special day,

gather lots of people,

friends, roommates, housemates, and classmates,

JusT

to sing a simple song,

to blow the burning candle,

AnD

pass our best wishes to HER,

Happy 20th Birthday!!

Sor En Wee

A surprise celebration

that make HER so surprise

and make out that funny face !!

Every making a small mouth

learnt from SooHin

but it ended up become

Mouth of PIG ^o^

In-House-Celebration

With 3-funny-guys

do funny faces and actions !!

Taking picture with

Miss 1493 =_="!

Taking photo with

4 handsome guys ^^

Finish 1 mid term paper !

Finally, today already finished marketing mid term 40 question objective. Am I doing the rigth things? Haha, i don't know lo !!

I think I'm stupid lo, got people telling me the correct answer but I still believe in own answer, and it ended up wrong all. So pity T_T !!

Whatever, I took that at my own risk, cause I know I might be doing the wrong answer but I still do it. Beleive in ownself is better, cause sometimes its hard to believe and trust other people.

Its very sad that the marketign mid term paper had ended, as it means the IT for Management paper is coming !! T_T..... Its the most boring subject and I always skipping, sleeping, playing games and chatting in the class. Not paying attention to the "Doreamon" pattern lecturer. He is so boring and he only explain what he know and understand the most. For the most difficult slide, like complex diagram, he only drag it over, no point is coming out from his mouth and he seems to be coming to class unprepared !!

So pity !! have to start studying the subject that I no interest in again. And the slide is jumping out from the MAIN textbook !!!

Am I suitable?

I had been kept on suspecting myself that I'm not that suitable to study Bachelor of Commerce (Hons) Accounting. My accounting subject grade keep on down grade since I study for my degree.

Is it the time for me to give up? Or is it the time for me to change course? If I give up, I think I won't get what I dreamed before. And if I change course, I will be the junior for my last time junior. Is that what I want? I don't know! I don't want give up at this time, but i scared myself will be terminated by UTAR one day. I seem can foresee that day.

I think I won't give up at this moment yet, I will still fight till my last breath.

我回来了！

回来了，
终于在昨天抵达Kampar了，
还要忙着清理房间，
真的有够累的；

回来了，
就在Yau Kei吃晚餐，
叫了两人分的三道菜，
附加一个面包鸡，
四人四碗饭，
一人十多个笑话，
笑得翻天覆地；

回来了，
就在晚餐后去挨通宵，
打了六个小时半的Dota，
隔天早上五点在Ghanny喝茶，
睡到十一点才醒；

回来了，
是喜是悲，
谁晓得，
玩个痛快先！！

奇迹！

终于我打开了我不想要看的网站--成绩出炉了！真的好怕！因为我真得不想要“肥佬”。

一大清早，有人已经通知我成绩出炉了！而且它的成绩还不是这么理想。心想：“这次真的难逃一劫了。死定了！”所以，我决定回Kampar后，才看！没想到，我在当天的最后一小时，瞄了瞄，看了看，我竟然没Fail。哈，好开心喔！

虽然成绩没有以往的那么理想，可是能够捡回一条命，算是不错了！真的没那么伤心。本以为会Fail 的，却奇迹的让我复活，谢谢上帝！

话说回来，我真的对那一次的考试没有信心，真能要求平安过关，就心满意足了！

我一直等

我一直等，
等我长大后能为所欲为；
小时的想法，
大了却相反。

我一直等，
等我会驾车到处遨游；
那时真得很期待，
现在却想被人载。

我一直等，
等待害怕的一天不会来临；
发呆真的幸福，
时间总不停留。

我一直等，
等待亮眼的成绩会出现；
等到都累了，
等到心已灰。

我一直等，
等那开满星星的天空；
等待充满希望的星星，
那我的等待会实现吗？

Got Scold again ~~

So sad... Since the day I came back to Penang, my parents kept on scolding me. They scolded me for not put effort in my studies but always play and have my honey moon at Kampar !

I shouldn't tell them that I'm going to fail my studies-Audit. Till today, my dad keep on telling to concentrate on my study and don't play too much. Am I not focus enough in my studies? I tried and I really can't accept the Audit subject ! I tried to love, tried to accept it, but it end up killed me and hurt me again and again !!

And also, during last final exam, I got fever and recovered only after 3days. I can't concentrate on that few days and had my headache whenever I want to study. However, I still study Audit, hope that I can pass. Is that called I did't put any effort? I know that fever can't become an excuse for me and I knew its my fault for not taking good care of myself during the final. Sorry then.

Arkkkk!! I also want to enjoy my student life and go for all the trip I could have so that I won't regret in my future. Its just a 4 years short student life for me to enjoy!!

回忆--永存

回忆--永存 ( memories--remember always)

This is the 5days 4nights Penang Batu Ferringhi Trip. Taste all the food around Penang, including BBQ at the seaside,eat food with sand as the sauce, play at the seaside and in the swimming pool, plus the night of Clubbing( which cannot publish by us). Wahh... I have never try all this before in my life and I had done it in few days with all my friends. We had been planning so long before, during and after the final exam. Although I had been worried for my final and the result, once I think if the trip I felt so excited.

Trip summarize:

1st Day:

We divided into 2batch to Penang, 1st batch fetch by me (arrive around 12pm) while the other batch fetch by Soo Hin( arrive around 9pm). When we 1st arrive, we were heading towards my home and had our lunch 1st before moved to Kek Lok Si. We had our Happy Hour there espcially KAe Ying and Kae Wen who used to pray a lot. After that, we go through McD drive-tru to buy 5Sundae Con. Then we meet with Soo Hin at 9pm. And we started our shopping at Penang Tesco to buy BBQ food.

2nd Day:

We were having our dim sum breakfast before went up to Bukit Bendera. After that we were moving to Holiday Inn at 3pm. We swam at there and did our BBQ preparation. We had our bad time when we were start up the fire. But finally had the charcoal burned up by using the candle and its done by me leh. Haha!

3rd Day:

We had our buffet at E&O hotel. Everyone body weight already increase by few kgs especially me. Last specialty for the day is the Clubbing session at night. Wah, unbelievable, everyone was dance and shake like a pro, and "she" shocked all of us, shaked until non-stop and full of energy !! Yong Sern was drunk on that day until he had headache, made all of us......Haha !! Xiao Di Di, kiang is enough but don't kei kiang. Haha !!

4th Day:

Some of us was swimming on that morning but some still dreaming in their bed. That day was a sad day, we were checking -out, and it means the last day of our trip. Time pass to fast. We were shopping at Queensbay Mall and Gurney Plaza. And finally had our dinner at the hawker stall beside the mall. Walking down the street, the wind kept on blowing at our face and hair. We were watching "Where Got Ghost" upon majority request. The movie was very funny but its not scary at all and still it can make Shirley shivering from hand till leg. Haha, I said its not scary because Kae Wen and Yi Hui the "Screaming Lady" didn't shout at all. And also for Yong Sern, I didn't feel that he was shivering like how Soo Hin and Me always make him terkejut lo. So as my conclusion, its not scary at all !!

5th Day:

This is the last day of the trip and it only covered the morning section only. We had our breakfast and then Soo Hin and Me sent them to the bus station for their 10am bus. And that's all for our Penang-Batu Ferringhi Trip !! Its "Time To Say Goodbye" !!

For full-story version, please proceed to Fandy Kan blogspot and Shirley Lim blogspot. Thanks. When they post? I don't know! But they say they will post....Haha!!

No kidding !!

It's real !! Real and real !!! Nothing is more real than this....

This time Audit I think I'm going to fail. No kidding !! What I mean is, I'm going to FAIL. I really have bad feeling about this. To study this subject I think it really can kill me and I suffer a lot from this. Last time before the exam, I wan thinking that it doesn't matter if i didn't get an A, just get a B will do. But now, I think any gred will do as long as I pass it.

Why no one believes me? I really don't know how to do the questions !! When I attempted the questions, I was some kind of giving up and try next time. But, I suddenly know that if I try again next time, means that I will have to redo the assignment and mid term again, that's not killing, the most difficult thing for me is to re-study the subject and take the exam again. I think its enough if I take this as the last time I would go and study for it !!

Do u ever realise I keep on repeating that I will fail? I really mean what I said ! If compare to last time, I just will say once or for a moment only, because I believes there is hope for me, but now, I don't know how many times I keep on repeating the same words !! But my friends(housemates) won't believe it !!! So SAD !!

SUPERB SAD! VERY SAD!! REALLY REALLY SAD !!

Really have to pray hard that I won't fail !! PLEASE!!!

狗与人！

狗会这么可怕吗？对于怕狗的人肯定是可怕的，可是对于疼狗之人，他们对狗付出爱心，把他们当成是宝！

最近，我家1493来了一只可爱，讨人欢喜，对它呵护，照顾友加！可是它就是“怪烂”，重视吵吵闹闹，小的尿往往比它喝的还要来的多，吃的比它肚子的容量还要多-一天两餐！比人还幸福！有时，会有housemate带它去散步，帮助它消化！

原本，我们家很多女生都不大喜欢狗（应该是怕），现在都可以喂它吃饭喝水。就连Zelene 都可以抚摸它的头。有趣吧？

可是，就在昨天，发生了一个非常惊爆的事情，搞得整间家鸡浅不宁，尤其是咋们家的女高音-Zelene，她的尖叫声简直是无人能比，上天下地，只要在十尺之内的人们都听得到！

话说回来，当时，我和我的housemate-Yong Sern，在为购的住家抹地时，就拜托 Soo Hin 把那只狗拖走。于是，Soo Hin 就把它拖到楼梯口那儿。当Zelene 要往楼梯下来时，Soo Hin 就叫那只狗追 Zelene。够残忍吧？哈哈！就这样，Zelene 就被吓跑了几次。可是，在被吓跑几次的当时，她已经喊了超过数百次。感谢上帝，幸亏我们家的玻璃不多！

当有一次，Zelene 真得跑了下来，准备要去找 Shirley 时，Soo Hin 又再次叫那只狗去追 Zelene。Zelene 当时什么都不想，只是一心想着跑啊跑啊！Zelene 快跑！好笑的是，Zelene 只跑了不到 2metres 的楼梯就站在那边了。哇！你一定是想Zelene 想要跟那只狗拼了是不是？

你错了！！Zelene 是因为那只狗儿搞得两脚动弹不得，唯有站在那边，喊到好像杀鸡酱！哈哈！Zelene 你也未免太又去了吧！由于我的华语程度有限，没能形容得酱生动！

请大家想一想：
如果追她的不是小狗，不是被人抓住的小狗，而是一只又大又凶的狗，而且没被绑住，你觉得Zelene 会怎样？

我想应该会两支脚动不了，应该连尿都会向地上流吧！！哈哈！（Zelene 我不是想要取笑你，而是想跟大家分享！）

时光。。

刚帮朋友庆祝完生日，突然之间，有了一点点的感触！现在回头一看，原来我们已经在一起酱久了，好像昨天才发生的事！想回当年，才刚搬进来不久，住在一起有了一年半，没想到再过一年半，我们就要各飞东西了。还记得我桌上刚放日历时，才一月，想再尽然是九月了！时间过得还真快。

明年凡是生日在五月过后的朋友们，就是我们最后一次庆祝生日了，那是可能是“久逢的聚会，也可能是最后的聚会了！”，好感伤哦！！希望大家能好好的聚在一起吧！

记得有一首歌《只在乎你》，里面的歌词写着：
“任时光匆匆流去，
我只在乎你，
心甘情愿感染你的气息，
经历过的一切，
是否就能这样让它过去，
你难道没有一点可惜，
也许我们明知故犯结局也只能有遗憾”

也许《闪亮的日子》也意味着同样的意思：
“是否你还记得,
过去的梦想.那充满希望灿烂的岁月,
你我为了理想,历尽了艰苦.
我们曾经哭泣, 也曾共同欢笑.
但愿你会记得, 永远地记着,
我们曾经拥有闪亮的日子”

有时真的在想，希望时间能停留在美丽的岁月里！哈哈！

希望明年我生日，也能够拥有 Soo Hin 的 photo album，能把所有我们一起度过的时光纪录下来! 我知道大多数1493的housemates们都想要拥有那本photo album，哈哈，能的话，希望能在明年你们生日时送上！

真得不想酱快结束学生生涯，希望永永远远的懵懂下去！

Happy Birthday Yi Hui !!!!

Upon Zelene request and my will also, I'm going to post something memorable for 1493 Chan Yi Hui ( Ah Ma). Happy Birthday ya Yi Hui, my housemate, classmate, coursemate, carmate, ex-classmate, ex-neighbour!! Haha!

On Thursday evening, we were having class till 8pm while my other housemates went for the steamboat 1st, we will jon them later after the class. But what the hell the tutor was teaching? Nothing, yes, I mean nothing!! He ask us do quiz in quia and let us check coursework marks. My mind was thinking about the steamboat and the celebration party.. wahh, can't stop imaging it. My heart said:" I want play, I want eat and I want RUN AWAY from the class!"

Finally, we arrived at the steamboat "任你吃", wah, so happy and we took a lot of photo. A lot of funny photo and photo taken with the tauke of the shop.

Picture with tauke in the middle

Where is Zelene and Fong Theng??

Nice picture brought to you by

Yu Wei, Yong Chiang

and Irwin Tan(with evil face)

in conjuction with Chinese Ghost Festival!

Good shot with correct angle !!

Haha.. acting!

Ice-cream advertising

By Kae Ying and Yu Wei

Zelene highest ice-cream

which couldn't stand at all !!

After the dinner which include supper, that's the time for us to "exercise"- Yong Sern tyre pancit, wahh, so sui betul that evil guy.

YS car !!!

Our "adventure" didn't stop at here !! We continued at home with arrival of special VIP (VVIP)- Tai Long. First of all, we gave Yi Hui the birthday card we made earlier with our own picture and hand-writting. Wah, so memorable, don't feel like want to give her lo. We 1493 members always try different things, so this time we try to give Yi Hui disappointed at 1st and then only celebrate her birthday with chocolate cake!! But I don't think she didn;t know lo, cause she always say that "think with brain la" !! Zha Dao !!

Look carefully, YS in this picture,

in facebook they say:

"he act cute !!" Haha!

I made this whole day and night,

without sleep,

wahaha!!

Once again,

Happy Birthday Yi Hui !!

Scared....Afraid...Nightmare.!!

Scary...scary... scary nightmare seem going to happen soon..!!

I have been in fear of the final "result" since I received my first mid term Audit result !! Ohhh... its so terrible until I can't even believe that I got that kind of result !! Its not the first time...Even other mid term I also did so badly !!

Am I going to fail soon?? For day and night, I have been worried this and that... I don't want to FAIL !! Very very very very scared !!!

Ahhh !! So confused !!! Don't know what I'm gonna write and think !! Just want and wish PRAY HARD can help me not to fail Audit and get good result for other subject especially AFA and AIS.
Both I also did very bad....T_T!

Ohh!! God help me please !!! please please please... who can help me?? I don't want fail.... I can foresee the future now if I going to fail for Audit mid term 2 again....... Can't fail! Can't fail !! Can't faillll !!!!!

付出。。

怎么觉得大家都不想付出的呢？
难道大家都不会觉得羞耻的吗？
每次把事情丢给别人做却从来没有付出过！
这样公平吗？

还记得，上个礼拜，我又给我的“朋友”欺骗了，难道我有酱容易被骗吗？还是我太过相信别人？明明一个礼拜前已经约好“他”在礼拜下午三点去打球的，可是“他”却在2.50pm时，告诉我，“他”不去了！当时的反应好像“他”已经没当这回事了！“他”说：“去哪儿哦？”

今天，我又约“他”在这拜六打球，“他”很爽快地答应了。当我希望“他”能去book场时，“他”说：“har??还要我特地跑到old town去！”真的把话说得好像我不需要“特地”的样子！岂有此理！当“他”载人到处走时，又没见“他”说“特地”？
（不是说我计较什么，只是当我需要帮忙时，请别泼我冷水-我没车去嘛！）

听到“他”那一句话时，我真的。。咳！是我活该吗？搞什么活动？打什么球？

不只这样，还有我的。。。啊！算了，敏感的话题就别再说了，没意思。。该时候睡觉了！

-含泪而终-

突然。。。

突然的我，
发现，
并不是每件事都会如此完美；
并不能如常所愿；
事事与人作对！

突然的我，
察觉，
怎么从以前到如今，
都没人告诉我，
我所带领的assignement都不成破高分;
都没人批评我，
每次都拿了最后几名的分数；
我的组员呢？
你们难道无所谓吗？
从Business Law (低)
到Financial Information Management (低)
到Pengajian Malaysia (无法想象)！
对不起 (=_=!)

突然。。
突然的突然。。。
突然的我好想放弃，
放掉我手头上的所有东西，
不想再拥有任何瓜葛，
不想再去烦（努力了却没有。。）
是逃避吗？
。。是想休息！

突然，
累了，
想。。
回家，
放假，
休息！

朋友！

朋友，
是否酱珍贵吗？
是否会徘徊在你左右？
是否会与你分享？
是否会与你谈天说地？

朋友，
他真的珍贵，
他真的徘徊在你左右，
与你分享，
与你谈天又说地！

可是？！

有了朋友真的不孤单吗？
就不寂寞吗？
就有了百分百的信任吗？
就会快乐吗？

是！没错！！
有朋友在“肉眼”看上去真的是不孤单，不寂寞；
我也不排除会有信任的出现，以及快乐！
可。。会有真心对待吗？

信任？
我从不相信会有这两个字的出现。我不排除我对“信任”有了偏见，有了陌生的观念。因为我坚信着友谊之间是存在着对双方有利的事情！所以，我从不告诉别人真心话，也从不信任别人，自己来追实际。可能因为酱吧，没有相信过我，当我说真的，他们当假的，我说假时，他们就信十足！

孤单，寂寞？
朋友，是多得很，猪朋狗友啊，路边的阿猫阿狗也算朋友啊，只要是“四海之内皆兄弟”，也不就成了朋友嘛！那是真正的友谊吗？是的话，我看我一辈子也寻找不了的友谊了。当你真正需要一个能够挺你，支持你的朋友时呢？去哪找？

酱的朋友，戏里就多了，真实世界会存在吗？等着。等着。。等着啊！好事不见得降临我身上，感动从不发生在我的灵魂里，真心友不曾被我内心看见，只是外表而已。真的要感谢上天以及我的父母啊，没能把我生得丑一点，生活再平穷一点，不然，我连现在拥有的一丝朋友都没了！

如果：
我脸长得像猪一样，身材像大象一样大，身上的汗水流得比水沟里的水还要快，穿的衣服已经补到没能再补的地步了，穿着开了大嘴的鞋，背着即不起眼又烂的书包，还有人会与我做朋友吗？友谊会出现吗？有啊！乞丐吗！哈哈！！

说了很多啰里啰唆的话，都不知内心想的是什么！算了吧！是真朋友也好，不是真也好，终之呢，好好的过完这辈子就行了！

Home = Comfort??

I've been back to home for so many days, start from last Saturday. But, I still can't find the comfortability that I want and hope to. Is it that I've been long time did not go home or I miss the environment at Kampar? There's no doubt that I the living style there, learn to be independent, chit chatting with all those pig friends, playing "chor dai di", dota-ing... and all jokes, but I still love to go home and love my house!

Home--suppose that I can get all the comfortability that I want here, I got my parents and siblings. Here, I don't need to eat outside food which I do always when I was at Kampar. My mum will cook everyday. And also I also can get fully treatment from my mum-soup! Wah, so delicious and no worry cause I don't need to go out. Back to hometown, I used to stay at house everyday, every time and every moments. I can sitting at the sofa doing nothing, walking around the house and feel the peaceful environment of the house. Every morning when i wake up, I can eat the breakfast on the table bought by mum. And keep doing the same things- eating & watch movie.
This is the equation:
wake up - eat breakfast - watch movie - eat lunch - watch movie - eat dinner - watch movie - sleeping = noting to be done!! See?? So easy the life going.

However, this time I feel so uncomfortable. I keep on worrying, think this and think that. Think about what? I also don't know! I just can't concentrate in whatever I did. I tried eating, sleeping, gaming, watch movie, singing. walk here walk there, still can't find a solution to solve my problem. Probably I'm worried about my result that is going to be announced in this two weeks time !! Ohhhhh, shit...Yup that's right!! This is what I worried about.

Remembered last time, after finish exam sure go home rest, had no worried about the result, cause I think that I had done my best. This time, although I also felt I had done my best, I still worried about the result! Should I worried?? Ya, I should say! Before the final, I had done all the revision completely and ask the expert whatever I don't know (funny, last time I don't even need help!) during the study week, before went back to Kampar. I think that I've prepared so much and it's more than enough for me to enjoy the remaining days of the study week. Who knows? God know! I got some nightmare.
1st nightmare: I dreamed that I can't finish memorize the management notes, I felt so stress and jing zhang!!
2nd nightmare: I dreamed that I actually had prepared well, but when I saw the management questions, I only know how to do half of the ques only, so ridiculous! I think I tried to cry out in my dream!
3rd nightmare: I had done all the account tutorial questions and some of the pass year question during the study week, but I don't know how to do!!

At last, all the three nightmare became reality, too sui lol! (曾经在考完最后一科时,不小心留了几滴泪! )

我真的没有哭, 留下的不是泪;
那只是努力过,留下来的汗水!

Arhhh!! Will it be my destiny?? I hope not to and I pray so that I wont fail any of the subject, at least must get a B+. Don't say I expect too high, I also don't want to but I have a contract with UTAR!!

Un-expected Returns !!

Finally, today, i went back to my previous outlet to find my ex-manager and friends.

First of all, i went back with a hope that is hope that she willing to hire me once again for only 2weeks time as I'm going back to Kampar next week. I already know that the percentage is very low and it couldn't happen. Who knows? When I met her, she prompts me with a question: "How long is your holiday?" I probably know that she already know my intention to work again and she willing to hire me again. But what i could do is just reject her by giving excuse ( maybe its not an excuse, its a truth), saying that I'm going back next week and only can work from tomorrow till next Friday. Hey, think about it, are you going to recruit by tomorrow and you are going to give her a resign letter by this Friday (a rule that a resign letter must be given 1week before day of resignation). It's unreasonable right?? However, she say that she is willing to hire me again in the future when I have longer holiday around 3weeks. Haha, the surprise came!!

She invited me to sit at the side table and took a piece of paper out from the envelope. Before she gave me the paper, she told me that she appreciate my contribution during the three months for selling the member cards and hit the target of the company. Oh, its a cheque and it written my name there. She divided the amount of incentive equally to the other 3 cashier that work previously. Haha, I have been working at Sushi King for around 5months after my SPM. And from my knowledge about Sushi King procedure and rules, I think that I know them well. The incentives they have will only give to the full timer and part timer only will give out the contribution. That's it !! It's my biggest surprise that I had been appreciated and all my effort worth it. Thanks to manager--Wei Yan, for being to fair and kind, good-hearted!!

I still wonder whether that I still can work there for next holiday (not more than 1month holiday) !! At Penang market, nobody is going to employ worker that are not working for more than 3month cause they scared that after they train you, you gonna run away!! But my manager nope, she willing to teach and employ people for short term (cause lack of people). But new rule at Sushi King is that: They would not hire ex-worker anymore!! (Without valid reason and my manager also didn't know -w-h-y-)

Looking into future is TOO far away;

BETTER concentrate in present !!!

终于的终于

终于能够充足得不充睡眠，
终于的终于，
最难熬的两个星期都熬过，
终于在昨天向朋友挥了手，
终于的终于还剩下那终于，
终于 = 结果 = 后悔

终于，在考完式候，发现原来自己并没有的充分的满足自己的要求！
终于，后悔之神，向我发了致命之标，向着他的目标前进！
虽然，我知道我并没有好好地把考试考好，可我从不后悔我在考试前夕的所作所为！

考试前一天，我只把lecture notes 和tutorial读完就算，我不强逼自己去做跟别人做的事！他们个个都把pass year 一题一题的作，可我，只有眼看却没有实际的行为。那是我失败的原因吗？是与不是的话又如何？？会有分别吗？
不是的话：唯有下次尽量明白课题多一点。
是的话：我回去做酱多练习题吗？依我对自己的了解，我是不会去做的！读书，我只想尽量放松自己，带着四个“希望球”去考而已。

希望，我能把书读完!!
希望，我能考好成绩!!
希望，我所读的会出!!
希望，考题会是我能力范围之内!!

如果时间倒流，让我有重新选择的权利，我想我还是会做一样的事情！
虽然眼泪会成诗，我还是坚持到底，坚持我的信念，到degree semester 底。

因为，我相信我做的是对的!
因为，我不想后悔！
因为，我尽全力了！

世界末日

好难，好不容易的把三科科目考完！

本可以开心的，可是往往都是带着伤心和绝望的心情离开考场。离开考场那瞬间，眼睁睁的看着现场的每一个人，不用说都知道他们脸上都已写着“开心”这两个字了！！

一大早起来，信心饱满的到考场去，满面春风，带着一团“知识兵”，准备和“考试分子”开战，拼个你死我活。谁知道，那些乌龟分子远远超越我“知识兵”的水准！养兵千日，用兵一时，结果战还没打完，已经被打得连妈妈都认不出！！咳，还真的有够力衰！就好像带着完美的人体进去，却带着崩溃的灵魂从那扇门出来！

已经连续三科了，三科！！60%已经白白的从我手上断送出去了！！怎么挽救呢？？是数命吗？接下来，都不知道要怎么去考—killing subject !!

A Box 试唱

累积了几场的试唱活动，终于我已得空把这一切回忆post上网了！！六小时的试唱，发生了许多有趣的事,失声搞笑，大喊大叫，疯狂大笑，爆发力十足，震撼全场！！

专心的凯营唱歌，后面却隐藏着两只“猴子”！

凯营与我

Me n Fong Theng

Kae Ying n Fong Theng

狼来了！！我不是！！

起起伏伏，天天不一样却带着一丝丝“一样”的情况，的人生，还有着起起落落的成绩，起起跌跌的心情————那就是我！！

咳，说了都心疼啊！！我曾经一度的认为与以为以及答应过自己，不会再拥有第一学期的烂透的成绩，可我不能实现我对自己的承诺。

新学期开始时，我很拼，努力的追回点数，第一次小考，果然不让我失望，虽然不是班上数一数二的分数，可是能拿到底分的高分，以算不错了！哈哈！天算不如人算啊，像梦一般，说来就来，根本不让你翻身的机会！第二次，macro分回来时，我还以兴奋，期待，骄傲的成绩感到自豪，以为可以实现这学期的梦想了。好景不常，只是近黄昏，黑暗慢慢吞噬了我！当我正在期待我最有信心的科目，他却告诉我，命数已尽。五十分里，别说四十分，我连一半都没超过！！是不是太可悲了呢？告诉人，都没人信！

今天，又一科分来了，我又帮自己创新高，那感觉好爽！很久都没享受过了!成功人者的后面都有个朋友名叫压力先生！！酱也只能以勉强的微笑迎接他了！但可别逼狗跳墙，我怕我会承受不了！

命运啊！我不信。。不信斗不过！！我来也！！

Exam come after continuously

Haha haha!!! Finally 1 of the exam-sss already end at 8pm yesterday. Haiz, the nightmare still didn't end yet. There are still 4 exam- Qt II, Macroeconomic, business management and FAF II.
I was wondering why all the exam came all together and others people like my housemates, they have their exam only 1subject each week and continue for 4 or more weeks.
This is the destiny and Kae Ying told me that we, accounting student were very kind enough, we let other people had the exam 1st and then we will sit for it after their turn.. Ohh!! Since when i become so "wei da" ?? Will i do that?? Definitely nope!! Haha... Whatever, just take it whatever it comes and do whatever I could.

Ohhh, Kae Ying was so concentrate in her studies while I'm still standing there capturing her picture.. Haha!!

Maybe somebody will become irrational when come to exam period or maybe will act in the other way round:


Yong Sern was acting as he was still a children in primary school!! Haha!!

(No la, actually he was eating some snack!)

Extreme Sports

That day, my friends, yi hui, xin shi, evon(hipo) and I were jogging from Westlake to Kampar Old Town Pasar Pagi. We walk through the long path, residential area and few playgrounds. It seem a very long and unattainable walk. Even with car, we will need around 15-20min. By jogging, we took around 2hours. Half walk, half jog, half run, half playing at the playground and most of the time, we were chit chatting and laughing.

Around 9am, we were back to new town and have our breakfast. Then, we continue our journey to the Westlake new bulit taman. We were enjoying capture icture most of the time. And our photographer, Cat joining us after we were back for our breakfast.

This all is the following picture:

Small pond filled up with lotus.

Beautiful man made waterfall

____LoTus___

Kurungan full with grass and flowers

Bamboo Jungle

Malaysia's Panda

Yi hui and me

From left,

xin shi, yi hui, evon and cat

while me, was capturing pic for them

那一天

一天过一天，

一日度一日，

每逢这两天，

终有不兴之事！

是否因为，

成长还是说学聪明了？？

或者有人说已会--

精打细算！！

无风不起浪。

每当说到“洗衣”，大多数都是我和另一个有心之人，背起这个负担，带着十人的大包大包袋子，到洗衣处去。虽说我们都拥有车，可我们不是以拥有车的名义来帮你们载去得嘛！！

有车是方便，但请用理智的头脑，和带着有小聪明的脑袋“替”我们想想，那个过程！！

It's fine if you all can't bring all those stuff go to the dobi centre, WE are very very willingly to fetch you all went there. But, PLEASE be considerate, we are also human-being and what we got is our limited strenght given by GOD!! How can you all expect us to go by our own every Wed (the day bring the cloths go) and every Fri ( the day when your cloths go back to your room). Do you think its that easy to work it out?? Then you SHOULD try it!!

I'm also a student, I have my own life, my own class, my own thing to do for. When you all say have something to do and just rejected my "offer" to go pick up your own stuff. Then, how about me?? Don't you think that?? Ok, it's fine if you were work on something very important like saving the world, then i will think on behalf of you. And all the bull shit that i look around is that you all were just sitting there watching movie, playing games , sleeping and all bla bla. Have you ever feel that i would like to do that also ??

Touch your own heart and ask:

"How many times had you GONE and PICK UP your own cloth??"

OR

"Have you ever follow or How many times had you follow us to pick up??"

There were someone else more 过分, when the cloth is not back on time, they will shout around like dog (吠). Keep on ask when and why we don't sent their cloths back to them. Hey, "Screamer" there, why won't you go and pick it up. If you don't have the abilty to pick up for others, just closed your month and take yours only!!

做前请三思，

做后请思过！！