破碎的镜子,
能够还原吗?
泼出去的水,
能够收回吗?
How come?? Result out !!!
My whole body was shaking...
Because of the already known poor result
That day, I decided not to see my result as i scared its not like what I think. However, I still tak tahan, my heart kept asking to see it, but my brain works in the different direction.
Heart,"see it, it might not be as worst as you think!!"
Brain,"Don't see it, you will not like the figure and grade!! "
Finally, naughty hand go and click to excess the intranet---here the result....
Ohhhh, my God !! How can it be?? I can't believe it. Maybe I should listen to my Brain. Is it that I can't break the spell?? My lecturer told us that mostly, students will not done well in their 1st sem. That time I thought become the legend of that spell. Who knows!! The higher I climb, the greater I fell. And now this happen to me. Maybe I should do my best in my study weeks n score as much as I could during the exam. Remembered once in exam, I wanted to pass up the paper without do anything on it, I felt very tired at that particular time. But I still finished it for my Parents and FUTURE. No doubt that I did very bad in my 1st 4 paper, I almost wrong in every selective question. I felt very disappointed and since then I won't discuss question with people who are very confident. I not dare to do so.Even to myself, I keep telling "Its my destiny, accept it, you will feel better." I can't make it.
Arrr !! Forget about those crap !! Forget it and start all over again. This is my 1st time to hear my mum shout " Harrrr!!!" Even last time when i get my result, either no sound or "why". This time I also surprised to hear it. I felt very guilty and my scholarship will be taken away anytime if they want to.
If I know scholarship holder have so many burden, i wouldn't have took it. I rather chose PTPTN loan. More relax. I swear !! This is my worst result ever!!!
Hope all this is a nightmare!!!
Will be recover soon !!
For those who are having nightmare like me,
Hope you all will go through this nightmare soon
Resit again and pass it once more
Dun let it be your penghalang !!
