每个人的头顶上都有一片又辽阔又自由自在的天空，
好像八宝袋一样，装满无数的装备，准备为大地苍生造福，
有白天，黑夜，晴天，蓝天，阴天，雨天，
人总不能旺一辈子，有起必有跌，有得必有失；
天空的表面还挂着无数的星星，
闪着闪着亮晶晶把微薄的光芒献给人们，大地，
给所有生物带来希望，依靠，继续往前走的动力，
如果人总是需要依赖别人，我的依赖呢？
那天空偶尔还拖着一个又胖又圆的月亮，
每逢佳节都会把光芒陪伴，娱乐人们，
将本能照亮大地，带来微薄但有生命力的光芒，
花好月圆，人圆团聚，能帮人圆梦吗？
白云，乌云都会集聚在天空的范围内，
白云带来晴天霹雳，乌云带来乌云密布，
自然的逻辑，有黑就有白，有贵人就有瘟神，
瘟神时常徘徊在身旁，贵人则擦肩而过；
天空是这样，那生长在天空下的我们呢？
每天活在你尔我咋，偷窃拐骗的世界，
厌倦了这样的生活，每天努力活着，
拼命为自己争取，想要荣华富贵，
到头来还是一无所有，一场欢喜一场空！
何必呢？
Tuesday, December 29, 2009
Monday, December 21, 2009
Back to Home !!
This is the first time I'm not the last person who leave the 1493 big family. Really enjoy the moment spent together. Today, after the exam, straight rush back to home and clean up the messy room during the exam period, then prepare to go home. Before going home, I had my this semester last lunch with Yihui and Kae Ying as well as my sister also.
Really feel bored when thinking to go home, cause at home I won't have the time to waste on talking craps with friends, playing around with those monkeys(ys,soohin), screamers(kw,yh) and of cause the bullier(sh,ky). And also won't get the chance to play L4D2(although is wasting money,but its interesting).
However, I got a lot of activities that are uncertain and going to be done in the future. On this coming Thursday, 24th Dec, i will meet up my friends in Gurney to sing K, and then go to the other part of Penang to meet my TA3 to countdown the Christmas. And they will be staying here for 3days until 26th Dec. Wow, so many activities!
During my last week of holiday, I will be going to KL for 4days, start from 10th Jan 2010, and then continue to Muar on 13th Jan night. The next day, 14th Jan, plan to go to Melaka to meet Fandy Kan in Tampin ( So sad that she keep on forget the day I want got to visit her T_T). Then back to Muar on 15thDec and enjoy our day in Muar for the food and moment there. Haha, back to Kampar on Saturday, either in the morning or night, depends on the other buddy, TYS. Haha, our main driver for half of the trip. Wakaka !!
Really hope to look forward that day to come. But that week also the week when the result is going to release, hope that our mood won't be interupted by the result, as this time, I think I won't get IT again.
Really feel bored when thinking to go home, cause at home I won't have the time to waste on talking craps with friends, playing around with those monkeys(ys,soohin), screamers(kw,yh) and of cause the bullier(sh,ky). And also won't get the chance to play L4D2(although is wasting money,but its interesting).
However, I got a lot of activities that are uncertain and going to be done in the future. On this coming Thursday, 24th Dec, i will meet up my friends in Gurney to sing K, and then go to the other part of Penang to meet my TA3 to countdown the Christmas. And they will be staying here for 3days until 26th Dec. Wow, so many activities!
During my last week of holiday, I will be going to KL for 4days, start from 10th Jan 2010, and then continue to Muar on 13th Jan night. The next day, 14th Jan, plan to go to Melaka to meet Fandy Kan in Tampin ( So sad that she keep on forget the day I want got to visit her T_T). Then back to Muar on 15thDec and enjoy our day in Muar for the food and moment there. Haha, back to Kampar on Saturday, either in the morning or night, depends on the other buddy, TYS. Haha, our main driver for half of the trip. Wakaka !!
Really hope to look forward that day to come. But that week also the week when the result is going to release, hope that our mood won't be interupted by the result, as this time, I think I won't get IT again.
Thursday, December 17, 2009
Pre-celebrating !!
People had already finished their last paper yesterday noon, and I, will also finish my last paper next Monday.
Today( means later noon) and tomorrow, I will be going to celebrate end of the exam session in advance with my housemates(who already can celebrate).
Now, I very contravention, as if I'm going to play now, like I'm not taking my last paper seriously, and I'm going to waste two days time just for playing. If I'm not joining them, like I'm deviance.
But, I believe in myself and I think think that I can handle my last paper well, just hope to get what I want (I'm not just hoping, I put a lot of effort in it!!) But normally the subject I put a lot of efford won't have good return. Just like my FIM, just get an A-, AFA, FAF II, and QT also all also getting a "-". How can that be?? I myself also don't know.
Hope that this time the both subject that I put efford won't dissappointed me. What I want is not a pass or a B, I want get higher.
Today( means later noon) and tomorrow, I will be going to celebrate end of the exam session in advance with my housemates(who already can celebrate).
Now, I very contravention, as if I'm going to play now, like I'm not taking my last paper seriously, and I'm going to waste two days time just for playing. If I'm not joining them, like I'm deviance.
But, I believe in myself and I think think that I can handle my last paper well, just hope to get what I want (I'm not just hoping, I put a lot of effort in it!!) But normally the subject I put a lot of efford won't have good return. Just like my FIM, just get an A-, AFA, FAF II, and QT also all also getting a "-". How can that be?? I myself also don't know.
Hope that this time the both subject that I put efford won't dissappointed me. What I want is not a pass or a B, I want get higher.
Monday, December 14, 2009
我害怕！
突然之间，我感觉越来越怕了！怕是因为做错事吗？怕是因为得罪了人吗？怕是因为内疚？应该不是吧，我没那种感觉，只是内心存在着一种不安的心情，一种无法向别人述说。原本怕已经使我，哎，再加上不能够找任何人诉说，怎么办才好呢？
怎么付出的不等于结果呢？为什么？为何？即使不同重量，至少也给我接近的结果，怎样也别给我差太多的分数嘛！是天在玩我吗？人算不如天算，怎么都斗不过天的！
昨天晚上，真得令我想起很多事，想了都让我起鸡皮疙瘩，真的太恐怖了，太离谱，太不可思议了！我还以为我的了忧郁症！
怎么付出的不等于结果呢？为什么？为何？即使不同重量，至少也给我接近的结果，怎样也别给我差太多的分数嘛！是天在玩我吗？人算不如天算，怎么都斗不过天的！
昨天晚上，真得令我想起很多事，想了都让我起鸡皮疙瘩，真的太恐怖了，太离谱，太不可思议了！我还以为我的了忧郁症！
Sunday, December 13, 2009
Countdown !!
9 more days, I will be free from any burden.
8 more days, I will be going to sit for my last paper –marketing.
7 more days, I will be sitting in the room studying the whole day for next day exam.
6 more days, I will be seeing a lot of people going back to their hometown, celebrating their holiday and Christmas.
5 more days, I will be having nice and golden dinner with my housemates, memorable memories.
4 more days, I will be going to Ipoh choosing my gift.
3 more days, I will be listening a lot of people hooraying for finishing their exam, especially my “toilet-mates”.
2 more days, I will be still continuing my revision.
Now the last day, I’m now watching series and playing games like having holiday.
8 more days, I will be going to sit for my last paper –marketing.
7 more days, I will be sitting in the room studying the whole day for next day exam.
6 more days, I will be seeing a lot of people going back to their hometown, celebrating their holiday and Christmas.
5 more days, I will be having nice and golden dinner with my housemates, memorable memories.
4 more days, I will be going to Ipoh choosing my gift.
3 more days, I will be listening a lot of people hooraying for finishing their exam, especially my “toilet-mates”.
2 more days, I will be still continuing my revision.
1 more day, I will be starting my revision for last paper.
Now the last day, I’m now watching series and playing games like having holiday.
“Ta-Ma-De”
I having my first paper test and it was ITM, the most memorable events that I will remember the most in my life.
Actually I had already prepared a lot during the study week, and I have confident that I answer the question properly. I had already study textbook, lecture notes and tutorial as well.
However, when I went in for the exam and open the question paper, “ta-ma-de”, just the section A, and I saw a lot of question marks, why I DIDN’T see any of the term before? Even I do, I also saw it from the textbook. In common, if the lecturer did not include some term in the slide but you can find it in the textbook, it means that the lecturer do not want you to study right? Or they just mean to ignore those particular parts.
And those lecturers really can set question from everywhere. Just like our midterm exam, it’s totally not related to us.
One word can describe these situations, “SUCKS”!!
Actually I had already prepared a lot during the study week, and I have confident that I answer the question properly. I had already study textbook, lecture notes and tutorial as well.
However, when I went in for the exam and open the question paper, “ta-ma-de”, just the section A, and I saw a lot of question marks, why I DIDN’T see any of the term before? Even I do, I also saw it from the textbook. In common, if the lecturer did not include some term in the slide but you can find it in the textbook, it means that the lecturer do not want you to study right? Or they just mean to ignore those particular parts.
And those lecturers really can set question from everywhere. Just like our midterm exam, it’s totally not related to us.
One word can describe these situations, “SUCKS”!!
Thursday, December 10, 2009
How to find?
Its very long time that I didn't achieve high marks for my every coursework marks. I have became "stupid", I think.
When in foundation, even my assignment marks didn't get the highest marks in class, but I still managed to achieve high marks in my coursework. But now, my courseworks depends on my assignment, without the assignment marks, I'm nothing.
Why I have become such "stupid"? Or I should say that I had lost my confident? Last time, I like exam a lot, and study like drinking water. But now, everytime I face the lecture notes, I feel very scared and no mood to study. Why ?? I'm finding that confident, but still it took me a very long time, and I still couldn't manage to find it.
When in foundation, even my assignment marks didn't get the highest marks in class, but I still managed to achieve high marks in my coursework. But now, my courseworks depends on my assignment, without the assignment marks, I'm nothing.
Why I have become such "stupid"? Or I should say that I had lost my confident? Last time, I like exam a lot, and study like drinking water. But now, everytime I face the lecture notes, I feel very scared and no mood to study. Why ?? I'm finding that confident, but still it took me a very long time, and I still couldn't manage to find it.
Miss HER...
Its already a very long time that she had been leaving me. But still, I can't stop myself from thinking everything about HER. I really miss her, although I knew that she won't come back again.
Form 2, is the year that I was first met her, her face, size, hair color, eyes, and ears, I still remember everything vividly. She was so cute that couldn't stop myself from looking at her. Since the day I met her, I played with her almost everyday.
When I was unhappy, she will accompany me;
When I was boring, she will play with me;
When I was happy, she was there to enjoy the joy with me;
When I was singing, she will listen from the beginning till the end.
It was a happy moment to have her. But, for now, she won't be there for me anymore. She had became memory for me. I STILL miss HER a lot !!
Form 2, is the year that I was first met her, her face, size, hair color, eyes, and ears, I still remember everything vividly. She was so cute that couldn't stop myself from looking at her. Since the day I met her, I played with her almost everyday.
When I was unhappy, she will accompany me;
When I was boring, she will play with me;
When I was happy, she was there to enjoy the joy with me;
When I was singing, she will listen from the beginning till the end.
It was a happy moment to have her. But, for now, she won't be there for me anymore. She had became memory for me. I STILL miss HER a lot !!
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