Am I suitable?

I had been kept on suspecting myself that I'm not that suitable to study Bachelor of Commerce (Hons) Accounting. My accounting subject grade keep on down grade since I study for my degree.

Is it the time for me to give up? Or is it the time for me to change course? If I give up, I think I won't get what I dreamed before. And if I change course, I will be the junior for my last time junior. Is that what I want? I don't know! I don't want give up at this time, but i scared myself will be terminated by UTAR one day. I seem can foresee that day.

I think I won't give up at this moment yet, I will still fight till my last breath.

我回来了！

回来了，
终于在昨天抵达Kampar了，
还要忙着清理房间，
真的有够累的；

回来了，
就在Yau Kei吃晚餐，
叫了两人分的三道菜，
附加一个面包鸡，
四人四碗饭，
一人十多个笑话，
笑得翻天覆地；

回来了，
就在晚餐后去挨通宵，
打了六个小时半的Dota，
隔天早上五点在Ghanny喝茶，
睡到十一点才醒；

回来了，
是喜是悲，
谁晓得，
玩个痛快先！！

奇迹！

终于我打开了我不想要看的网站--成绩出炉了！真的好怕！因为我真得不想要“肥佬”。

一大清早，有人已经通知我成绩出炉了！而且它的成绩还不是这么理想。心想：“这次真的难逃一劫了。死定了！”所以，我决定回Kampar后，才看！没想到，我在当天的最后一小时，瞄了瞄，看了看，我竟然没Fail。哈，好开心喔！

虽然成绩没有以往的那么理想，可是能够捡回一条命，算是不错了！真的没那么伤心。本以为会Fail 的，却奇迹的让我复活，谢谢上帝！

话说回来，我真的对那一次的考试没有信心，真能要求平安过关，就心满意足了！

我一直等

我一直等，
等我长大后能为所欲为；
小时的想法，
大了却相反。

我一直等，
等我会驾车到处遨游；
那时真得很期待，
现在却想被人载。

我一直等，
等待害怕的一天不会来临；
发呆真的幸福，
时间总不停留。

我一直等，
等待亮眼的成绩会出现；
等到都累了，
等到心已灰。

我一直等，
等那开满星星的天空；
等待充满希望的星星，
那我的等待会实现吗？

Got Scold again ~~

So sad... Since the day I came back to Penang, my parents kept on scolding me. They scolded me for not put effort in my studies but always play and have my honey moon at Kampar !

I shouldn't tell them that I'm going to fail my studies-Audit. Till today, my dad keep on telling to concentrate on my study and don't play too much. Am I not focus enough in my studies? I tried and I really can't accept the Audit subject ! I tried to love, tried to accept it, but it end up killed me and hurt me again and again !!

And also, during last final exam, I got fever and recovered only after 3days. I can't concentrate on that few days and had my headache whenever I want to study. However, I still study Audit, hope that I can pass. Is that called I did't put any effort? I know that fever can't become an excuse for me and I knew its my fault for not taking good care of myself during the final. Sorry then.

Arkkkk!! I also want to enjoy my student life and go for all the trip I could have so that I won't regret in my future. Its just a 4 years short student life for me to enjoy!!