破碎的镜子

破碎的镜子,

能够还原吗?

泼出去的水,

能够收回吗?

How come?? Result out !!!

My whole body was shaking...

Because of the already known poor result

That day, I decided not to see my result as i scared its not like what I think. However, I still tak tahan, my heart kept asking to see it, but my brain works in the different direction.

Heart,"see it, it might not be as worst as you think!!"

Brain,"Don't see it, you will not like the figure and grade!! "

Finally, naughty hand go and click to excess the intranet---here the result....

Ohhhh, my God !! How can it be?? I can't believe it. Maybe I should listen to my Brain. Is it that I can't break the spell?? My lecturer told us that mostly, students will not done well in their 1st sem. That time I thought become the legend of that spell. Who knows!! The higher I climb, the greater I fell. And now this happen to me. Maybe I should do my best in my study weeks n score as much as I could during the exam. Remembered once in exam, I wanted to pass up the paper without do anything on it, I felt very tired at that particular time. But I still finished it for my Parents and FUTURE. No doubt that I did very bad in my 1st 4 paper, I almost wrong in every selective question. I felt very disappointed and since then I won't discuss question with people who are very confident. I not dare to do so.Even to myself, I keep telling "Its my destiny, accept it, you will feel better." I can't make it.

Arrr !! Forget about those crap !! Forget it and start all over again. This is my 1st time to hear my mum shout " Harrrr!!!" Even last time when i get my result, either no sound or "why". This time I also surprised to hear it. I felt very guilty and my scholarship will be taken away anytime if they want to.

If I know scholarship holder have so many burden, i wouldn't have took it. I rather chose PTPTN loan. More relax. I swear !! This is my worst result ever!!!

Hope all this is a nightmare!!!

Will be recover soon !!

For those who are having nightmare like me,

Hope you all will go through this nightmare soon

Resit again and pass it once more

Dun let it be your penghalang !!

Moment...

Finally, we've finished our 2weeks exam

Exam, a long and a short moment

Long duration for us to study and sit for exam

Short moment for us to gather

We have all the happy memories in 1493

Celebrating, playing, eating, cooking and yum-cha once a while

Missing all those slides when we were around

Hey, pals...

Hope to meet you all next year !!

Happy Holidays

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Happy Merry Christmas

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Happy New Year 2009

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Happy Enjoying

Wish u all first, in case I forgot to send sms

对不起

无知是罪吗？？

不懂是错吗？？

人就不容有错吗？

什么嘛！！是人的话，就会有错！

不然，“对不起”拿来干嘛？

就真的说声“对不起”，就够了吗？

它真的是万能？？

不知所措。。

不知如何。。

不能释放。。

。。。。。。

做错了真的能，

说声对不起就好了？

酱我就说声对不起

对不起，不是给对不起我的人，

对不起，不是给跟我有过节，而不更我说对不起，

对不起，是给对得起我而我对不起她的，不好意识!

对不起！！

人生无常

当面临考试，紧张；

正在靠考时，没趣；

考试完毕后，后悔；

开始的无心，造成人身中，一去不复返的地步，

我已无力继续，只能叹声对不起！！

现在是什么时候了？？

到底现在的我，此时此刻的我，到底在干吗？

这真的是我吗？还是我在做梦？

真的不得不由我去怀疑，我到底怎么了？？

“神啊，救救我吧。。”

突然，这首歌浮现在我的脑李！

在考场里，我竟然想交白卷，放弃！

我等待了以久的时刻终于来了，

我努力了，拼搏了，辛苦了，这么久

可我却。。。

难道我想要的不是我想要的吗？？

是否一直以来斡旋错了方向？

记得去年，当我修着Foundation In Arts时，

我读得非常开心，充满好奇心，

充满期待，期待着我即将走的路，

这种感觉，它好像不再存在了。

尝试过很多方式，去努力的找回以前的灵魂，

都不管用！！

想放弃，却觉得对不起某人，

想继续，却觉得得到的不如期望；

以前的我，到底是怎样的？

以前的我，到底是酱的吗？

以前的我，到底会如何做？

以前的我，到底。。到底。。到底。。？？

对不起！！我需要些时间。。

Sleep....sleep....sleeP

Yesterday, i had my presentation early in the morning. Who knows?? When we got there at 9.45am sharp, then our class rep announced that the lecturer will be late for an hour. And we will start our presentation at around 11.00am. OMG !! It's not the 1st time for her to be late!! Through out the whole semester, she either late or cancelled the class. Can you all imaging that we got up early in the morning and attend her class sharp at 10am and she will late or cancel her class. So terrible, horrible, vegetable......

Arhhh!! After the presentation, we actually still have two more classes in the afternoon, but, we went home to change cloths and had our lunch. Later in the class, i felt very sleepy and no more energy and mood to study. However, i kept on stay in the class till the end.

After 5pm, i went home and took a bath, and straight went to the bed and sleep. At 1st, i was thinking to sleep till dinner, but then, by the time when i open my eyes, its already early in the morning.

Ohhh NO !! Yesterday i was waiting them to woke me up for my dinner and then no one is knocking my doors. But never mind, i quite enjoyed the sleeping feeling.

Today, when i re-see my housemates, they, one-by-one, come and tell me that they finally see me as i was in my bed for over 12hours. Har?? Ohhh!! They were knocking my doors, calling me like mad and i couldn't hear anything. Haha, sleeping over 12hours is my 2nd experience in my life and my 1st time in here,Kampar. 1st time is in PJ, sunday. That day, after my dinner, I also slept from 7pm to the next day 8am. Wahhh! Wonderful sleep. Suddenly, i feel quite impress of myself because i will never sleep like this. I will think that sleeping too long will waste my time and now the miracle happened in me to let me rest after the heavy assignment and stressful mid-term exam.

If i call the mid-term exam(Small test that are more more and quite easy exam for us to past) as stressful, what should i call my final exam?? Izzit that i should feel very very very very very stressful, panic?? Haiz.....Think what should i do for now but not think so far.. Still have 1month, enjoy the life here !!