突然之间，我感觉越来越怕了！怕是因为做错事吗？怕是因为得罪了人吗？怕是因为内疚？应该不是吧，我没那种感觉，只是内心存在着一种不安的心情，一种无法向别人述说。原本怕已经使我，哎，再加上不能够找任何人诉说，怎么办才好呢？
怎么付出的不等于结果呢？为什么？为何？即使不同重量，至少也给我接近的结果，怎样也别给我差太多的分数嘛！是天在玩我吗？人算不如天算，怎么都斗不过天的！
昨天晚上，真得令我想起很多事，想了都让我起鸡皮疙瘩，真的太恐怖了，太离谱，太不可思议了！我还以为我的了忧郁症！
Monday, December 14, 2009
Sunday, December 13, 2009
Countdown !!
9 more days, I will be free from any burden.
8 more days, I will be going to sit for my last paper –marketing.
7 more days, I will be sitting in the room studying the whole day for next day exam.
6 more days, I will be seeing a lot of people going back to their hometown, celebrating their holiday and Christmas.
5 more days, I will be having nice and golden dinner with my housemates, memorable memories.
4 more days, I will be going to Ipoh choosing my gift.
3 more days, I will be listening a lot of people hooraying for finishing their exam, especially my “toilet-mates”.
2 more days, I will be still continuing my revision.
Now the last day, I’m now watching series and playing games like having holiday.
8 more days, I will be going to sit for my last paper –marketing.
7 more days, I will be sitting in the room studying the whole day for next day exam.
6 more days, I will be seeing a lot of people going back to their hometown, celebrating their holiday and Christmas.
5 more days, I will be having nice and golden dinner with my housemates, memorable memories.
4 more days, I will be going to Ipoh choosing my gift.
3 more days, I will be listening a lot of people hooraying for finishing their exam, especially my “toilet-mates”.
2 more days, I will be still continuing my revision.
1 more day, I will be starting my revision for last paper.
Now the last day, I’m now watching series and playing games like having holiday.
“Ta-Ma-De”
I having my first paper test and it was ITM, the most memorable events that I will remember the most in my life.
Actually I had already prepared a lot during the study week, and I have confident that I answer the question properly. I had already study textbook, lecture notes and tutorial as well.
However, when I went in for the exam and open the question paper, “ta-ma-de”, just the section A, and I saw a lot of question marks, why I DIDN’T see any of the term before? Even I do, I also saw it from the textbook. In common, if the lecturer did not include some term in the slide but you can find it in the textbook, it means that the lecturer do not want you to study right? Or they just mean to ignore those particular parts.
And those lecturers really can set question from everywhere. Just like our midterm exam, it’s totally not related to us.
One word can describe these situations, “SUCKS”!!
Actually I had already prepared a lot during the study week, and I have confident that I answer the question properly. I had already study textbook, lecture notes and tutorial as well.
However, when I went in for the exam and open the question paper, “ta-ma-de”, just the section A, and I saw a lot of question marks, why I DIDN’T see any of the term before? Even I do, I also saw it from the textbook. In common, if the lecturer did not include some term in the slide but you can find it in the textbook, it means that the lecturer do not want you to study right? Or they just mean to ignore those particular parts.
And those lecturers really can set question from everywhere. Just like our midterm exam, it’s totally not related to us.
One word can describe these situations, “SUCKS”!!
Thursday, December 10, 2009
How to find?
Its very long time that I didn't achieve high marks for my every coursework marks. I have became "stupid", I think.
When in foundation, even my assignment marks didn't get the highest marks in class, but I still managed to achieve high marks in my coursework. But now, my courseworks depends on my assignment, without the assignment marks, I'm nothing.
Why I have become such "stupid"? Or I should say that I had lost my confident? Last time, I like exam a lot, and study like drinking water. But now, everytime I face the lecture notes, I feel very scared and no mood to study. Why ?? I'm finding that confident, but still it took me a very long time, and I still couldn't manage to find it.
When in foundation, even my assignment marks didn't get the highest marks in class, but I still managed to achieve high marks in my coursework. But now, my courseworks depends on my assignment, without the assignment marks, I'm nothing.
Why I have become such "stupid"? Or I should say that I had lost my confident? Last time, I like exam a lot, and study like drinking water. But now, everytime I face the lecture notes, I feel very scared and no mood to study. Why ?? I'm finding that confident, but still it took me a very long time, and I still couldn't manage to find it.
Miss HER...
Its already a very long time that she had been leaving me. But still, I can't stop myself from thinking everything about HER. I really miss her, although I knew that she won't come back again.
Form 2, is the year that I was first met her, her face, size, hair color, eyes, and ears, I still remember everything vividly. She was so cute that couldn't stop myself from looking at her. Since the day I met her, I played with her almost everyday.
When I was unhappy, she will accompany me;
When I was boring, she will play with me;
When I was happy, she was there to enjoy the joy with me;
When I was singing, she will listen from the beginning till the end.
It was a happy moment to have her. But, for now, she won't be there for me anymore. She had became memory for me. I STILL miss HER a lot !!
Form 2, is the year that I was first met her, her face, size, hair color, eyes, and ears, I still remember everything vividly. She was so cute that couldn't stop myself from looking at her. Since the day I met her, I played with her almost everyday.
When I was unhappy, she will accompany me;
When I was boring, she will play with me;
When I was happy, she was there to enjoy the joy with me;
When I was singing, she will listen from the beginning till the end.
It was a happy moment to have her. But, for now, she won't be there for me anymore. She had became memory for me. I STILL miss HER a lot !!
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